-And what is your sin my child?
-A devouring obsession. A lethal thought.
Nightmares and tears. Fear and angst.
-What lies behind all of these?
-A woman. A creature of devil if not of God.
A succubus in the form of a siren. Accomplishment. Happiness.
All that I can not possess.
I see her in my dreams. She's always there. Haunting me.
She is me. I am her. Yet she is not me. And I am not her.
I am a photograph. She is the negative image.
Holy father,I make evil thoughts that have no relation with God.
In my dreams I kill her. I see her dead, gone forever from my life.
And I am happy. I am full. For I am what I am again.
I want to get rid of this obsession. I want to bring myself back to the right-hand path.
But how can you kill a dream? How can you excommunicate someone you don't know?
I lead a sacramental life. I accept God in my heart. I am pure. Except...in my dreams.
In my dreams I am a red-eyed beast. An assasinator. A crow.
And I sometimes fear that this may become reality.
That a demon may take my soul, what once was whiter in me.
I am a nothing. I have lost my life. I want it back.
Evil in various forms penetrates my thoughts.
And I feel it stirring my innards. And I swirl in a coil.
Father help me. Help me get rid of this leecherous foe that has poisoned my mind.
-How long has it been since your last confession child?
-I have never again confessed father.
Father,she's always there.She steals everything that belongs to me.
Or was it never mine?I don't know.I can't tell anymore.
Or was it never mine?I don't know.I can't tell anymore.
I have lost all connection with the Sun that once was there.
Where it once was is now a black hole.And I need to fill it up.
Father,I need to fill it up.With something unique.
Something...To help me believe in me again.
To believe I am...
-Pray to God that He will lend you His grace. That He will save you.
That He will help you get rid of the beast. Pray constantly. Pray along fasting.
And come again for a confession soon.
-But Father...
-Ego te absolvo.In nomine Patris et Fillii et Spiritus Sancti.Amen.
